you are special

when i first declared my major..i was a little iffy about it.

i mean biology. it seems cray cray. something i wouldn't picture me honestly doing.

slowly but surly i am coming to LOVE my major. it's not easy..by any means. but so far, it makes sense. it clicks. it's hard enough to make me work but not hard enough to make me want to poke my eyeballs out. i love it already:) and! it's even better when your best friend is in the class with you. 

biology teaches very important life lessons. 

like we are all very special. 

like really.

today we talked about mitosis and meiosis.

and did you know that at the end of all the cell divisions, if we started with a sperm cell, all those newly divided cells will mature into little spermies? that will eventually try to fertilize an egg.

but in  a girl, when the cell originally divides, it's a gnarly division. one half is huge..then you have this itty bitty other scrawny half..then they both go through meiosis, and you only end up with one cell big enough to mature into an egg cell. that eventually be turned into a baby with the help of the spermies.

we are all so special!! we were the ONE cell big enough to mature into an egg cell...:) well of course not ONE but 3/4th of the possible egg cells died...we are freakin awesome. 

so we not only are the fastest sperm, BUT the egg cell that survived meiosis.

i heart being a bio major.  

forehead kisses

there's a right way and a very wrong way of doing the infamous 

when it's unexpected and by someone you like, it's cute. when you're okay with them being all up in your space, then it's fine. sometimes,it's even better than anything else. forehead kisses just rock. 

but when done by the wrong person, they're creepy. 

so this kid..i've known him since we were like in the first grade. so forever and a half. he's sorta like my brother..the brother i never wanted. (there are other guys who i would consider "the brother i always wanted." but not him. he's the one to tell me i would be more attractive if i had bigger boobs and the one that tells me i'm a "category one." one being the lowest..

thanks. 

so today, i was walking back to my car being all anti-social and what not i saw this kid. so he stopped me and we talked for a little. then when i was trying to leave, he went in for a hug. okay..whatever. then he forehead kissed me..and then did it again..and it was really really weird. and i don't really know what i'm supposed to think about that.. like i've honestly never gotten a forehead kiss from someone random..like someone that i didn't honestly like. and it's not like i like like him now...it's more like i don't want him near my face anytime soon.. 

boys are weird.

the end. 

marily knew what was up..

black and white. forehead kisses. 

love it. 

this just melts my heart

children

lately pinterest is full of adorable children. 

and i want them all. 

take a look 

isn't she presh?

look at her little baby melt!!!

oh my goodness gracious. i just died 

freakin adorbs 

:) 

i want her. 

awh little baby ballerina 

this. kid. just. kills. me.

dsvbajkdvapun :) 

oh gosh

:)  :) :) :):)

baby audry 

dear hubby, 

lets have adorable children.

actually, i'm only having one..or two..

you are welcome to birth anymore after that.

or we can adopt. 

love, me

official

ladies and gents, 

i am now an official college student. 

why you may ask?

because today, i woke up knowing it was THURSDAY. 

okay, i have class at 8:30. i got up at 7:15...and i thought i had plenty of time to get ready and show up for class..i even got a text from a friend that said "you better be coming to class today" 

and i thought, "duh..why wouldn't i?"

but then before i knew it..it was 8:45..and something still hadn't clicked..because something in my little head could have sworn it was WEDNESDAY..when class starts at 9...

i officially skipped class today..on total accident and i promise it won't happen again.. 

i feel so lame. skipping class isn't as cool when you're paying 200 dollars a week to be on the roll..

then because i was late, i figured i'd show up early for my next class so i could run to the library to print off my paper due today. 

parking over by the library at 8:30 in the morning is heck. it's horrible and i think UVU should re-think it's whole parking situation...
i got out of english 20 minutes early and i was thinking "sweeeeeet!!" until i lost my car...
i wandered up and down the parking lot for AN HOUR trying to find my car.
i called my mom and she was like "maybe it was stolen.."
so i about cried.
then i called the campus police...and steven drove me around the parking lot assuring me that people lose their cars all the time..not just freshman.
eventuallly we found her..a lot off of where i swear i left her.

so now, i skipped my first class, ran out of conditioner in the shower, parked in the boonies, lost my car, found it and met steven ...but!!

i went to bed early last night, i found my missing chapstick that i could have sworn taylors car ate, i understood my math homework, and my paper is done.

:) 

gnarly

most of the time, this is really how i feel.

i just wanna crawl into a whole and not talk to anyone and frankly, not wear pants either.

but it's funny what having your homework go smoothly does to you.

frankly, i feel awesome. 

it might be due to the fact that it was my MATH homework that i did all on my own:)

true story. no skype-ing taylor:) gnarly right? right.

i honestly think my better thinking comes to me later in the day..well at night..around now ish and midnight..

i dunno why..it may be because errything is quiet and it's just me..or because i like to think i'm a night owl..

either way, facebook takes way to much of my time..

like unhealthy amounts. and it needs to go.

facebook cleanse starts tomorrow. 

productivity here i come:) 

help

today i came to the realization that i need a new major

i declared biology..

and now, i'm thinking that maybe..just maybe i might not be cut  out for this med school stuff..

or college....

or even productive living...

i NEED something driving me..so i don't spend nights dreading homework like i do now

you would think Johns Hopkins would..but uh..no..not quite

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help..

100 things you should know about me

1. i love watching foreign/ indy films

2. my full name is Alejandra Paola Sanchez Hernandez

3. i got beat up in kindergarten 

4. i love taekwondo 

5. college showed me my true friends

6. i wish i never would've given up piano lessons

7. i hate bananas 

8. i used to have an eating disorder 

9. i am terrified of having kids 

10. if i could go back, i'd be a dancer. or a gymnast 

11. i hate getting ready in the mornings

12. i loved high school 

13. disneyland truly is the happiest place on earth 

14. i was a love child 

15. i know what it's like to be in love. real love. ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, "can't live without you love"

16. i was 14 when i got my first kiss. i wish i would've waited

17. i am horrible at math 

18. i have awesome friends

19. the University of Utah is my dream school

20. i love taking hot showers

21. feet are gross

22. i love my parents

23. if i have something to say to taylor and don't know how to word it, i'll write about it here knowing that he'll read it sooner or later. because i'm awkward

24. i can't swim

25. i love harry potter

26. sometimes i think i might end up a cat lady 

27. running makes me happy 

28. i like to pinterest

29. i never know what to say when someone tells me i'm pretty 

30. i've never gotten stitches

31. i love my sunbeams

32. i'm terrified of spiders, getting broken up with, and disappointing my parents

33. i love English classes

34. ever since college, i wear real bras

35. i am really quiet when i first meet people

36. i cry a lot more then i'd like to admit

37. i could eat white chocolate for the rest of my life

38. i love planning stuff

39. i got asked to 3 proms and only got to go to 1

40. i hate judgmental people

41. i think that people who claim to be "patriotic" and always rip on president obama are morons

42. i have a deep love for the beach 

43. i want to go to Johns Hopkins for medical school 

44. hugs will always make it better

45. pinky promises are serious 

46. i consider myself a conservative democrat

47. i live in fear of regret

48. i want to win an olympic gold medal in sparring

49. i never want to seem "needy"

50. i think pet names were made up by whores who don't wanna mix up names 

51. byu fans who call utah fans "classless" make me mad

52. when i grow up i want to be a sports doctor 

53. i want long mermaid hair

54. i love weddings and  can't wait to plan my own

55. my little sister is incredible 

56. i love vintage..preppy...tribal...beachy...

57. i want a puppy 

58. i've kissed 7 boys 

59. world war two is incredibly fascinating to me 

60. i want to travel all over the wold 

61. i don't think LDS missions are for everyone 

62. i'm finally learning to think for myself 

63. i love being a part of teams

64. biology is easy, psych...not so much

65. i love holding hands 

66.  i like to think i'm hilarious 

67. when i was little i dreamed of running away because my best friend once did

68. toasted bagels are my favorite 

69. i have an awesome boyfriend

70. i like things done my way 

71. i think boys should always open doors for girls..little things go a long way..

72. sometimes "the thought" doesn't cut it 

73. i want to live in europe for a year or two 

74. my life plan doesn't revolve around me having children

75. i come from a small family and know about 6 of my cousins

76. i'm competitive

77. i think i'm still a good member of the LDS church even though i have my own opinions 

78. boys with scruff turn me on

79. i've gotten a new years kiss

80. sometimes i forget i'm mexican

81. i'm 5'6.5

82. boyce aveue is my favorite 

83. i am a totally different person then i was a year ago

84. sometimes i feel like a loser going to UVU

85.  i try my hardest to avoid drama
86. meeting moms scares me
87. i want to adopt a little boy from brazil
88. i don't think being gay is a bad thing. i love the gays actually
89. i love the Kardashian drama
88. i like to read. a lot
89. i earned my personal progress medallion
90. i want to get married in the temple
91. i wish i were more outgoing
92. more then anything, i want my parents to look at me and be proud of who they raised
93. even though i say i don't care what people think of me, i do sometimes
94. someday i will play the guitar
95. i love it when people doubt me. it makes me want to work that much harder
96. if i wasn't a member of the church, i would've gotten a tattoo for my 18th birthday
97. my dream car is a cherry red jeep wrangler. 2 doors. soft top. and with a lift.
98. i love getting my hair done
99. getting my patriarchal blessing was one of the coolest experiences ever
100. i made it through high school without drinking, smoking or having sex  

cow kisses

the other day i read this post where a girl went in for the kiss and at the last second, she turned her cheek and yelled 

"COW KISSES" 

and licked the side of this face. 

i personally thought this was hilarious. i about peed when i read this.

so, naturally, i HAD to try it..just to see what taylor's reaction would be like.

and what better time then after he won his homecoming game??

so when i saw him i kissed him...then totally cow kissed him....:) 

and guess what he did.

he licked me right back. 

gross. 

i think he's a keeper  :) 

p.s. i totally checked off one of my bucketlist things tonight

high school football game? check.

friday, september 14, 2012

my whole life i've been telling myself

 "don't be afraid."

and it is only now that i'm realizing how stupid that is. Don't be afraid. It's like saying 

"don't move out of the way when someone punches you"

 or 

"don't flinch from the heat of the fire"

 or

 "don't blink."

 it's not human. 

 i'm afraid and you're afraid and we're all always going to be afraid, because that's the point.

what i should be telling myself is 

"be afraid. but do it anyways"

live anyways..

goodbye summer, hello fall

i like lists. 

all sorts of them. 

bucket lists,

to-do lists

have done lists

shopping lists

and now, since it's fall and everything, i'm making a fall bucket list 

-enter a race 

-star gaze 

-watch the sun rise 

-find awesome sweaters to wear all winter

-jump into a pile leaves

-facebook ban 

-read a good book

-make caramel apples 

-send a letter to someone

-go to a football game

-go on a hay ride

-decorate all Halloween-y

yes:) 

nine eleven

i remember being outside at recess with everyone. 

we were running around playing tag and then the bell rang. 

time for math. the worst part of the day.

we all came in and there was a weird feeling in the room..sort of like we were missing something 

the old t.v. in the corner of the room was blaring some movie..

two towers were on fire and what looked like people jumping out of windows.

we were all so confused. 

what movie is this..? why are second graders being shown this..? 

the neighboring teacher came into our class room in tears and none of us understood why..

why was she sad..?

no one said anything.

kids started to get checked out eventually there was only about a group of 4 or  5 of us that were left at the end of the day. when the bell finally rang i ran outside to my mom. i just had to tell her about this movie and that everyone was acting weird..

when i got home, the same movie was on our t.v. too...

and this time my mom was the one who started crying.

so i asked..

"someone attacked our country.." 

it didn't make sense.. 

looking back, i'm almost glad i was too young to understand what was really going on. i didn't realize the magnitude of our country's situation. 

but what has always been clear from day one is that many innocent people who didn't need to lost their lives. 

countless brave individuals sacrificed themselves to ensure the rest of the country would be safe.

i am so incredibly thankful for anyone who chooses to serve our country.

only America can withstand a horrible attack and come back stronger then ever.

once a runner, always a runner

"You don't run against a bloody watch. Do you hear?? A runner runs against himself, against the best that's in him. Not  against a dead thing of wheels and pulleys. That's the way to be great, running against yourself. Against all the rotten mess in the world.. Against God. If you're good enough."

bill persons was a man who knew how to use his words. 

the awesome thing about cross country is that it never really goes away. something in you totally changes the moment you decide to walk out on the line for the first time. 

it changes everything from your once presentable feet, to your mindset. 

i'm running against myself. i'm my biggest hurdle. 

the only thing stopping me from reaching any of my goals in anything...is me.

semester goals:

3.7 gpa

make friends

A in math class

find a job

run on the days i don't have practice

journal/ blog 3 times a week

write my missionary friend..pal..person..boy..man..matt.. more consistently 

have a positive attitude 

no sugar week

facebook cleanse 

things i love

there are a few random things that i've recently noticed i ABSOLUTELY love

here they are

freckles. i think some people look so pretty with them. it's like they have a million little hickies from the sun

stripes. horizontal stripes are my favorite. even though they're the least flattering on anyone who isn't under 72 pounds, there is something timeless about them that makes me want everything with stripes. even panties. 

giant hobo sweaters and leggings. it's the closest you can get to being pantless and modest at the same time. 

i love me some leggings.

shoes. but mostly the ones where you can't decide if they're ugly or super cute in their weird way. 

those are my fave.

wedding day pictures. gah. everything about them makes me want to get married already. i want to go find a dress, and cry when he gets on his knee and look for apartments and live of ramen because we're both going to school and poor. it sounds like an adventure of a life time and i can't wait. 

(actually, i can wait. i'm not like dying to get married yet. who am i? a BYU student? nah:) but i am really super excited)

cray cray hair. i always want to do something with my hair that no one does. 

i have an appointment in two weeks. :) 

purple streaks maybe?

favorite movies ever. i'm having serious harry withdrawals. time to reread? i think so

neutral nail polishes. classy? yes. timeless? yes. 

 

babies:) i just love them. from afar. i panic when they cry. so hopefully my hubby will know what to do. 

i just got called to be a sunbeams teacher:) so it's sort of like playing with babies all sunday:) 

black and white photography. 

it's grand.

and chubby babies.

they're great too:) 

sports bras. there is nothing better. 

i would wear them everyday if i could

oh wait...i do

uhh huh:) 

puppies. puppies make my heart smile:) and they always love you:) 

clothes. i just like them lots. because running around naked is frowned upon. 

jack johnson. 

i love this man. 

quotes. i'm a quote whore.  

  

 

the world. i will see all of it. 

i truly believe that travel is the only thing you can buy that makes you richer.

i just wanna be a llama..

today has been quite the emotional roller coaster  

and it's not even 4 in the afternoon

it starts with my thoughts going sort of like this 

body: oh! guess what time of the month it is...!!

me: please, goodness no-

ovaries: ALL SYSTEMS GOOOOOO

brain: i quit. i quit. puppies and cupcakes and no one loves me. oh my gosh salty snacks. i am furious.

me: please, guys, calm down--

face: TIME TO RUIN EVERYTHING YOU'VE EVER LIKED ABOUT ME!! I'M GROWING MOUNTAINS BIH

brain: and now i'm ugly. jdsbpcjiadbcaeuwi.

torso: time to practice labor. CRAMP!!! go go go GO GOOOO!!!

me: STOP!! AHH FOR THE LOVE OF SUGAR AND SPICE AN EVERYTHING NICE!! please...whimper whimper...

stomach: hahaha you can't wear clothes anymore. you're bloated. like a cooooooooooooow. moo

me: i hate you all.

brain: I KNOW EVERYONE HATES ME I AM SO DEPRESSED!!!

face: i'm not done yet..MORE MOUNTAINS!

uterus: what did i ever do to deserve this?

brain: just you wait uterus, they're going to make you hold a baby like that for 9 straight months

torso: CONTRACT

me: i quit being a female. i wanna be a llama. a boy llama.

brain: me gusta..

after the inner turmoil, i went and got ready

see that nasty scar looking thing? that's a burn my friends.
from my straightener.
it's BLISTERING.
getting ready is dangerous. boys, the least you could do is tell a girl she looks pretty.
it makes all the burns worth it.
well, not really. but kinda.

because if there's something i learned this week it's

that you NEVER know who you're going to see around campus.

and lets face it girls, no matter who your ex is or whoever it is you kissed, 

when you see them you want their first thought to be "dang who is that..? oh my heck..is that (insert  name here)?? she's looking good...why did i ever let her go..?? i'll go talk to her"

then this is where we act all uninterested and hope that our hair looks like rock star hair. 

good thing i got ready yesterday!! loose curls, cut offs, simple grey tee and a fun sweatshirt with a pair of light blue toms i stole from my sister. 

kinda like oops, i'm cute..

at least that's what i was going for..i prolly looked more like "i rolled out of bed and these are last nights curls." 

BUT! the point is that this said boy came over and talked to me..and what did i do? 

play it off like it's nothing:)

because it was.

HECK YES!!

i am swamped with homework.

a paper in English 

a page of definitions 

a chapter for English 

a personal statement for clss 1000

a profesh email for clss 1000

a chapter for clss 1000

and 2 math chapters 

and a test tomorrow that i NEED to ace because i didn't turn in my homework quiz because i haven't done my homework yet..because i just got this in the mail

yay valorebooks.com

my lovely book was only twenty five bucks. cheapest book this semester:) 

hello long night a head..

oh, p.s. my mom is working late and my microwave is broken...if anyone wants to bring me dinner

i will forever love you

and make you brownies.

maybe.

summer 2012

good bye endless summer days where all you really need is a pair of shorts and a t shrit.

hello endless winter days wrapped up in sweaters and boots. countless trips to starbucks and saturday nights   snuggled up in blankets having movie marathons. 

so lets do a summer 2012 wrap up shall we?

well i guess graduation was a big deal..

:)

then i got called to serve as an assistant camp leader:) 

yay girls camp

what an awesome group of girls:) 

camp was a totally different experience from the leaders end. it was so amazing to see all these girls grow closer as sort of a family during this week.. and! at our testimony meeting at the end of the week, ALL our girl bore their testimonies and there wasn't a dry eye around our make shift camp fire. the spirit that was there was just incredible. 

we didn't end up going to camp shalom this year due to all the fire warnings so we ended up camping at Spanish Fork River Park. it was such an amazing year. and lemme tell you, beside from all the pot guts and bugs, shalom is really an incredible place. 

i went to my first funeral ever. 

taylor offered to carry our shoes so we wouldn't' sink into the grass as we watched the casket being lowered..

when i found out about Jay, i was in shock..there was no way it was real.. 

the day before we saw her at one of our friends wedding reception 

then the next thing i know, i'm in the middle of sunday school and i get a text from a girl who i haven't talked to in about a year.."i hope you don't die!!" 

and my first thought was along the lines of "...okay? i hope you don't die too..? and shut up. i saw janet last night. she's fine and this isn't funny."

but it was all too real. 

it was the first time i'd ever gone to a viewing..a funeral..a internment...

i don't think i've ever cried that hard...

in a weird way, 

it was such a testimony builder. i was supposed to be at camp that entire week. but due to the service, i drove down and back up a few times that week. 

heavenly father really does know what to do for us. he does provide a way. 

camp was closer to home so i was able to drive there and back, camp is an intense spiritual week, and after everything, that was exactly what i needed. a week in the wilderness, with girls i love, and the spirit to know that i was going to be okay. to know that everything was going to work out in the end. 

he really does know us and know who we are and what we individually need. 

the church is true my friends:) 

celine came and visited!!:) she's this super cute girl who was an exchange student like 2 years ago and ran cross country with us. so of course, we all played:)

then i hit up LAKE POWELL with one of my all time best friends EVER 

brittnaaaay brinksssss

we went into town our last night and went country dancing:)

jet ski!

all the older girlies. right before the storm got really bad

boatin

fishin was the fun thing to do at night when no one else was down for night swimming or a movie

totally gorgeous.
calm before the storm 

right in the middle of the storm. our boat got sucked out into the lake and we all watched from the dock of the house boat. so scary! 

A-team right there!! everyone trying to save the boat

how pretty is that?

it was joshies 24th birthday!! so we made him brownies:) what an old man..

tubing!!

more tubing!

riding through the marina:)

full moon

gah. take me back

no editing. promise.

dear future hubby, 

we should get a house boat and live at lake powell all summer yes?? yes. 

yours truly, 

future wifey

then i decided that i would be a coach for this years black belt season!

hello over nighter!!

my home boy nathaniel picked me flowers on our hike!!:) 

i love being a coach. i watch:)

check it out. i could be spider girl!

THEN! it was time for school..

so my lovely parents got me a computer:)

classic web cam shot:) 

and now, i am ready for winter:) but a part of me will always crave summer:)

i've been listening to this all day.

enjoy:)