so this is it

i woke up hoping it was just all some nightmare i dream of. 

but the pounding headache and puffy eyes remind me how real it is. 

it sucks. i'm so sad..

thank goodness i have amazing friends who are willing to drive down from salt lake just to come cuddle me and hold me as full emotion set in. and another incredible friend who went to the creepy gas station just to come over too.