the hardest thing i've ever gone through.
maybe when i didn't get asked to prom junior year..
or getting a stress fracture my senior cross country season..
almost not walking at graduation..
getting grounded on my graduation night..
or maybe even getting asked to prom 2 days before the dance.
but with all of those it's all been something materialistic.
dresses..graduation...parties..
i've never been really hurt by anyone so i always thought it was super easy to forgive and forget. but learning to forgive someone who wasn't supposed to hurt you ever is the hardest. by far. the worst part is when all i want to do is scream "this is YOUR fault. ALL YOUR fault. YOU ruined EVERYTHING."
but the reality is that it's never any one person's fault. the moment when you realize you have to take ownership of what you did sucks because it clicks. it wasn't all his fault. he didn't ruin everything. i contributed..
this whole forgiveness is hard. but i feel like good things come from hard stuff.
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