so tired

6 weeks into the semester and i feel like i'm going to die. 

there is always some reading to do..some paper to write...some math problem that needs solving..

and never enough time for me to sleep...

i feel like i'm dying. 

last weekend i seriously spent all weekend in bed..sleeping..and it was incredible. 

physically, i feel exhausted. my head is constantly pounding. i feel all gross and pre periody..that was prolly too much info...oh well 

mentally, i'm not as worn down as the rest of me

emotionally, i feel like i'm walking on egg shells with myself. at any moment i  might start crying and i just don't know.. no one gets it. and the only person that does lives in salt lake..guess who has expired plates and no gas. this one. so a mini road trip is out of the question. 

"how are you doing?"

"fine.."

no i'm not fine.. i need a hug and i just wanna spend my weekend curled up on my couch watching p.s. i love you, the notebook and harry potter. i need me a good crying shesh. and chocolate. that would help too. 

usually i'm the one taking care of others..and i am very capable of taking care of myself. i have for well..18 years. i can get by with very minimal emotionally from others. but i am just so run down and exhausted and i don't even know why.. i just need someone to tell me it's going to be okay and that i'll get through this.. i can't do it alone anymore...

who's a baby...?

this one...