woops.

i made him mad yesterday. 

he made me cry. 

it was all unintentional but it still happened. 

we exchanged "i'm sorry"s and all was well.

we never ever fight. when we disagree, we just agree to disagree. sometimes i wonder if it's all too good to be true. but then this happens and it's just sort of like life saying "it's great and all but it's NOT as perfect as you think it is. you're both normal people who will say things you don't mean, but it's okay. you're both okay.  so clean your face up and tell him you love him because even though you're crying because he was mean, you're still crying because he apologized and fixed it right then and there."

simplicity at it's finest

sometimes the simple little things are the ones that make it so great. 

the other day taylor came and got me and we just went shopping. it was a typical day at the mall filled with dressing rooms and fashion advice. 

started off at lowes, then hobby lobby in search for a white board. new favorite store? i think yes. if only i was crafty. but black boards and cork boards make anyone look crafty right? so many ideas for my soon-to-come apartment:) 

we went to starbucks somewhere in that and we ended the day at target in search for fabric paint. 

we didn't do much but it was so fun at the same time. it's nice to know that we can do normal, simple things and just enjoy each other's company without any fluff. :)

give thanks

things i'm thankful for 

1. this little monster. she's pretty cool for the most part. 

i love me  my sissy 

2. the fam. they are wonderful (for the most part). but they never cease to love me at the end of the day. xoxo 

retro. where it all began. 

18 years later.

sanchez's. awh, i love em all!

3. sports. in general. they've given me the chance to meet some of my best friends and kept me from being an overweight monster. 

who woulda thought that the girl in second would be my worst enemy then turn into my BEST friend years later? love me some bhoff<3 

awh baby me and britt sparring

nike regionals 2011 

cross season 2011

4. britt brinkerhoff. 

who would have ever thought that two girls who were the top dog at their own studios would have to merge teams and later become best friends? i honestly hated this girl when i first met her. then after a few solid punches and some major brawls, we decided that we liked each other. and here we are, almost 4 years later, besties and soon-to-be roomies. holla at yo gurl:)

5. this kid.

this kid is tay taaaaaay. and he is rather swell. he listens to me when i freak out about nothing, and hugs me and lets me bawl on him when i climb into his car already in tears. he comes to viola things because my little sister asks if he'll be there and he helps me with my math homework on the regular. basically, i kinda love this kid and am super stoked he's around

6. facebook.

it gives me the access to all of my ex-boyfriends girlfriends and all sorts of fun things. it makes stalking so much easier. and i know everyone else is just as thankful for facebook. they're just not willing to admit it. 

7. trials.

i guess it's true. if we didn't know what the bitter was like, we'd never really know how good the sweet really is. in a weird way, i am thankful for all those nights i spent crying into a pillow because of some boy. it's taught me what i do and don't want in a relationship, it's taught me to be thankful for what i have now, and all sorts of fun stuff.

8. deodorant and nail polish

i know i'm not the only one who is thankful for smelling nice

and who the heck doesn't love doing their nails? it's like therapy. only cheaper. 

9. missionaries 

i just think they're awesome. i love getting letters from Matt and hearing all about Argentina. it seems like he should be coming home soon but guess what..it has only been like 7 months. 

10. marines 

all the service men and women really. but i just know a few marines and they are true bad asses. 

11. the church

although sometimes i have the hardest time with it, i like to think that there is some thing out there bigger than anyone of us here calling the shots. that we aren't just here wandering around and fall off the face of the earth when we die. i think i'm finally finding out for myself if the church is really true and i feel like i'm at the crossroad where i decided to truly gain my own testimony or decide that the church isn't for me.

finally

i've decided that mondays are going to be my new favorite day.

or at least second favorite day. 

today, 

i finally got a job

meet your new hostess at the wild mustang grill and bakery

:)

good day eh?

but there was this awkward conversation when i mentioned that if for some reason i never got married, i'd be okay with it. and kels was like "wow. that's a sad life." 

and in my head, it isn't. if for some reason it doesn't work out for me, why would i mope around? i'd get a dog and go play in europe. if i do get married (fingers crossed) then awesome. me and the hubby and puppy will go play in europe. no part of that sounds sad to me..?

i dunno..i just think that it's okay to have a career..and to go play by yourself for a little. but if the right guy asks the question sooner than i figured, i would not hesitate to say yes. i've seen incredible women go to LAW SCHOOL while having a baby. 

also, today i struggled with my math homework..

taylor is in puerto rico..

i'm on my own..

i miss him..

even if i don't see him during the week, it's okay, because he's here. 

he's close-ish.

but now he's super duper far away 

aaaaaaaaaand 

who knows when i'll see him..

hopefully no sharks eat him..

or get attacked by crabs..

i miss him

yes well..

catch up game yes?

last weekend i finally got back into the sparring ring after far too long. 

it was a hard fought match, but oh my, it was fun. never will i ever take a break for that long. Kenzi was an awesome fighter. you win some an lose some right? but i had the best cheerleaders anyone could ever ask for:)

then

taylor went to sadies and i had a girl date with britt!:) 

(this is where i would post a picture of tay and his date..but i feel like that's creepy. and i'm a cool girlfriend so i won't.) 

then 

my sister was like "hey..is taylor coming to my thing?'

(her "thing" is her playing her violin at young women in excellence) 

and i went " i dunno, i'll ask him"

so i was like "so..my sissy has a viola thing and asked if you were coming.." 

then he was like "when and where??:)"

and honestly, it sorta melted my heart when he was so willing to come support my yittle sis.

so he came tonight :) 

then my sister was like "i have a joke."

and i was like "okay?"

then she was like "not for you..for taylor.."

and this is  huge..she hated him for a while..and now she's telling him jokes?? there must be something right with this kid

so she took my phone and started telling jokes to taylor. but she was really tired and he was taking forever to reply but she NEEDED to see what he said..

i dunno..something about that just melted my insides:) 

game changer?

in my patriarchal blessing, it says that i will  have the opportunity to share the gospel through a calling or even a mission calling. 

i turn 19 in less than 3 months. 

before this news, my game plan was not a mission. it was going to school (it says something about knowledge in my blessing too) and then getting married in the temple..and being a working mom. my mommy was one and i feel like me and my sister turned out just fine.

but so far i feel like conference has been highly focused on families and missionary work. 

i am terrified. 

and i'm almost scared to pray about it because i know i'm not ready right now, and i'm afraid of getting a certain answer. 

i almost feel like this whole conference has been for me...everything was just what i needed to hear. 

it has been quite the weekend filled with many, many random crying fits. thank goodness i have friends to call at midnight and a boyfriend who comes over and lets me cry on him and tells me everything's gonna be okay:) 

cow kisses

the other day i read this post where a girl went in for the kiss and at the last second, she turned her cheek and yelled 

"COW KISSES" 

and licked the side of this face. 

i personally thought this was hilarious. i about peed when i read this.

so, naturally, i HAD to try it..just to see what taylor's reaction would be like.

and what better time then after he won his homecoming game??

so when i saw him i kissed him...then totally cow kissed him....:) 

and guess what he did.

he licked me right back. 

gross. 

i think he's a keeper  :) 

p.s. i totally checked off one of my bucketlist things tonight

high school football game? check.