help

today i came to the realization that i need a new major

i declared biology..

and now, i'm thinking that maybe..just maybe i might not be cut  out for this med school stuff..

or college....

or even productive living...

i NEED something driving me..so i don't spend nights dreading homework like i do now

you would think Johns Hopkins would..but uh..no..not quite

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help..

100 things you should know about me

1. i love watching foreign/ indy films

2. my full name is Alejandra Paola Sanchez Hernandez

3. i got beat up in kindergarten 

4. i love taekwondo 

5. college showed me my true friends

6. i wish i never would've given up piano lessons

7. i hate bananas 

8. i used to have an eating disorder 

9. i am terrified of having kids 

10. if i could go back, i'd be a dancer. or a gymnast 

11. i hate getting ready in the mornings

12. i loved high school 

13. disneyland truly is the happiest place on earth 

14. i was a love child 

15. i know what it's like to be in love. real love. ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, "can't live without you love"

16. i was 14 when i got my first kiss. i wish i would've waited

17. i am horrible at math 

18. i have awesome friends

19. the University of Utah is my dream school

20. i love taking hot showers

21. feet are gross

22. i love my parents

23. if i have something to say to taylor and don't know how to word it, i'll write about it here knowing that he'll read it sooner or later. because i'm awkward

24. i can't swim

25. i love harry potter

26. sometimes i think i might end up a cat lady 

27. running makes me happy 

28. i like to pinterest

29. i never know what to say when someone tells me i'm pretty 

30. i've never gotten stitches

31. i love my sunbeams

32. i'm terrified of spiders, getting broken up with, and disappointing my parents

33. i love English classes

34. ever since college, i wear real bras

35. i am really quiet when i first meet people

36. i cry a lot more then i'd like to admit

37. i could eat white chocolate for the rest of my life

38. i love planning stuff

39. i got asked to 3 proms and only got to go to 1

40. i hate judgmental people

41. i think that people who claim to be "patriotic" and always rip on president obama are morons

42. i have a deep love for the beach 

43. i want to go to Johns Hopkins for medical school 

44. hugs will always make it better

45. pinky promises are serious 

46. i consider myself a conservative democrat

47. i live in fear of regret

48. i want to win an olympic gold medal in sparring

49. i never want to seem "needy"

50. i think pet names were made up by whores who don't wanna mix up names 

51. byu fans who call utah fans "classless" make me mad

52. when i grow up i want to be a sports doctor 

53. i want long mermaid hair

54. i love weddings and  can't wait to plan my own

55. my little sister is incredible 

56. i love vintage..preppy...tribal...beachy...

57. i want a puppy 

58. i've kissed 7 boys 

59. world war two is incredibly fascinating to me 

60. i want to travel all over the wold 

61. i don't think LDS missions are for everyone 

62. i'm finally learning to think for myself 

63. i love being a part of teams

64. biology is easy, psych...not so much

65. i love holding hands 

66.  i like to think i'm hilarious 

67. when i was little i dreamed of running away because my best friend once did

68. toasted bagels are my favorite 

69. i have an awesome boyfriend

70. i like things done my way 

71. i think boys should always open doors for girls..little things go a long way..

72. sometimes "the thought" doesn't cut it 

73. i want to live in europe for a year or two 

74. my life plan doesn't revolve around me having children

75. i come from a small family and know about 6 of my cousins

76. i'm competitive

77. i think i'm still a good member of the LDS church even though i have my own opinions 

78. boys with scruff turn me on

79. i've gotten a new years kiss

80. sometimes i forget i'm mexican

81. i'm 5'6.5

82. boyce aveue is my favorite 

83. i am a totally different person then i was a year ago

84. sometimes i feel like a loser going to UVU

85.  i try my hardest to avoid drama
86. meeting moms scares me
87. i want to adopt a little boy from brazil
88. i don't think being gay is a bad thing. i love the gays actually
89. i love the Kardashian drama
88. i like to read. a lot
89. i earned my personal progress medallion
90. i want to get married in the temple
91. i wish i were more outgoing
92. more then anything, i want my parents to look at me and be proud of who they raised
93. even though i say i don't care what people think of me, i do sometimes
94. someday i will play the guitar
95. i love it when people doubt me. it makes me want to work that much harder
96. if i wasn't a member of the church, i would've gotten a tattoo for my 18th birthday
97. my dream car is a cherry red jeep wrangler. 2 doors. soft top. and with a lift.
98. i love getting my hair done
99. getting my patriarchal blessing was one of the coolest experiences ever
100. i made it through high school without drinking, smoking or having sex  

cow kisses

the other day i read this post where a girl went in for the kiss and at the last second, she turned her cheek and yelled 

"COW KISSES" 

and licked the side of this face. 

i personally thought this was hilarious. i about peed when i read this.

so, naturally, i HAD to try it..just to see what taylor's reaction would be like.

and what better time then after he won his homecoming game??

so when i saw him i kissed him...then totally cow kissed him....:) 

and guess what he did.

he licked me right back. 

gross. 

i think he's a keeper  :) 

p.s. i totally checked off one of my bucketlist things tonight

high school football game? check.

friday, september 14, 2012

my whole life i've been telling myself

 "don't be afraid."

and it is only now that i'm realizing how stupid that is. Don't be afraid. It's like saying 

"don't move out of the way when someone punches you"

 or 

"don't flinch from the heat of the fire"

 or

 "don't blink."

 it's not human. 

 i'm afraid and you're afraid and we're all always going to be afraid, because that's the point.

what i should be telling myself is 

"be afraid. but do it anyways"

live anyways..

goodbye summer, hello fall

i like lists. 

all sorts of them. 

bucket lists,

to-do lists

have done lists

shopping lists

and now, since it's fall and everything, i'm making a fall bucket list 

-enter a race 

-star gaze 

-watch the sun rise 

-find awesome sweaters to wear all winter

-jump into a pile leaves

-facebook ban 

-read a good book

-make caramel apples 

-send a letter to someone

-go to a football game

-go on a hay ride

-decorate all Halloween-y

yes:) 

nine eleven

i remember being outside at recess with everyone. 

we were running around playing tag and then the bell rang. 

time for math. the worst part of the day.

we all came in and there was a weird feeling in the room..sort of like we were missing something 

the old t.v. in the corner of the room was blaring some movie..

two towers were on fire and what looked like people jumping out of windows.

we were all so confused. 

what movie is this..? why are second graders being shown this..? 

the neighboring teacher came into our class room in tears and none of us understood why..

why was she sad..?

no one said anything.

kids started to get checked out eventually there was only about a group of 4 or  5 of us that were left at the end of the day. when the bell finally rang i ran outside to my mom. i just had to tell her about this movie and that everyone was acting weird..

when i got home, the same movie was on our t.v. too...

and this time my mom was the one who started crying.

so i asked..

"someone attacked our country.." 

it didn't make sense.. 

looking back, i'm almost glad i was too young to understand what was really going on. i didn't realize the magnitude of our country's situation. 

but what has always been clear from day one is that many innocent people who didn't need to lost their lives. 

countless brave individuals sacrificed themselves to ensure the rest of the country would be safe.

i am so incredibly thankful for anyone who chooses to serve our country.

only America can withstand a horrible attack and come back stronger then ever.

once a runner, always a runner

"You don't run against a bloody watch. Do you hear?? A runner runs against himself, against the best that's in him. Not  against a dead thing of wheels and pulleys. That's the way to be great, running against yourself. Against all the rotten mess in the world.. Against God. If you're good enough."

bill persons was a man who knew how to use his words. 

the awesome thing about cross country is that it never really goes away. something in you totally changes the moment you decide to walk out on the line for the first time. 

it changes everything from your once presentable feet, to your mindset. 

i'm running against myself. i'm my biggest hurdle. 

the only thing stopping me from reaching any of my goals in anything...is me.

semester goals:

3.7 gpa

make friends

A in math class

find a job

run on the days i don't have practice

journal/ blog 3 times a week

write my missionary friend..pal..person..boy..man..matt.. more consistently 

have a positive attitude 

no sugar week

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