and a happy new year

every year i make new years resolutions. 

every year i keep them for 2 weeks. if that.

i am DETERMINED to keep mine this year. so here they are. 

1. keep my job

it's so nice to have my own monies. i can buy everything at target! 

just kidding. because books are lots and lots of monies. 

2. not compare myself to others

i feel like this is the hardest thing for me. it's not that i look at other girls and think "oh i wish my thighs were as skinny as hers!!" or "OHMYGOSH her hair is beautiful and i have gnarly hair. i hate myself"

it's more like "oh awkward...they got a FULL RIDE to NOT UVU and i only got HALF TUITION at a freaking almost community college." i think that this past year that has been my biggest insecurity. i go to dumb kid college. and it's not because i didn't get in anywhere else, it's because it's what was right for me for the time being. at the end of the day, a degree is a degree. unless it's from like stanford or duke. because those are worth gold. 

3. hit the gym at least 5 times a week

so far so good. freshman 15 is no where near me. it's more like freshman 5..i miss running and feeling my ponytail swish back and forth.

4. save monies. 

salt lake isn't gonna be possible unless i save monies for it

5. have a good attitude about life

i'm constantly surrounded by AMAZING people every day. why should i waste even a minute being upset? unless it's finals week or period week. then i'm allowed to be grumpy. 

6. be nicer to my sissy

we fight a lot. and we don't play tons. i don't want her to be like "yeah..my sister was a brat.." because she is usually the sweetest thing alive. it's just too sweet for me sometimes and i get annoyed. she's great. and i need to remind myself more often that she is 

7. let those around me know they're appreciated

i like to think that i'm pretty self sufficient. but really, if i was stranded on an island by myself, i would last all of 3 hours. i have such amazing friends and family who love me even if they don't agree with me all the time. they need to know how much i love them more. 

8. "No. I am not serving a mission."

for the past 18 years of my life, i was raised thinking sister missionaries were the weird ones who never got dates and ended up on a mission because they weren't getting married anytime soon. i have my plan already in motion and i don't feel like serving is right for me. honestly, i've thought about it. "Sister Sanchez" or "Hermana Sanchez" maybe even "Sœur Sanchez" but i've only thought about it because ALL of the girls i was closest to last year are submitting in papers and getting calls. but, i feel confident in not going, and i would love if everyone just got off my back about it. 

goodbye summer, hello fall

i like lists. 

all sorts of them. 

bucket lists,

to-do lists

have done lists

shopping lists

and now, since it's fall and everything, i'm making a fall bucket list 

-enter a race 

-star gaze 

-watch the sun rise 

-find awesome sweaters to wear all winter

-jump into a pile leaves

-facebook ban 

-read a good book

-make caramel apples 

-send a letter to someone

-go to a football game

-go on a hay ride

-decorate all Halloween-y

yes:) 

once a runner, always a runner

"You don't run against a bloody watch. Do you hear?? A runner runs against himself, against the best that's in him. Not  against a dead thing of wheels and pulleys. That's the way to be great, running against yourself. Against all the rotten mess in the world.. Against God. If you're good enough."

bill persons was a man who knew how to use his words. 

the awesome thing about cross country is that it never really goes away. something in you totally changes the moment you decide to walk out on the line for the first time. 

it changes everything from your once presentable feet, to your mindset. 

i'm running against myself. i'm my biggest hurdle. 

the only thing stopping me from reaching any of my goals in anything...is me.

semester goals:

3.7 gpa

make friends

A in math class

find a job

run on the days i don't have practice

journal/ blog 3 times a week

write my missionary friend..pal..person..boy..man..matt.. more consistently 

have a positive attitude 

no sugar week

facebook cleanse 

now we wait..

ladies and gents, 

it's done. 

my college applications are sent. 

now all there is left to do is wait for the e-mail. 

secretly, i hope they still send out letters:) 

i think i'd have a harry potter moment.

ya know? when harry gets his letter from hagrid?

only hagrid will be my mail man. but it's whatever. 

 so meanwhile, i have a NEW checklist of stuff to do. 

1. Get out of crutches

2. not die on the icy roads

3. Try to get ready all THIS week too

(i got ready every SINGLE day last week..yay:) )

4. kiss lots of boys

..no just kidding. haha cross country runner remember??

4. make up my med english grade AND my NC's 

mostly so when my parents get my report  card, i can show them how it's taken care of..

5. Stop eating my weight in yogurt every other day 

6. christmas shop for my besties:) 

7. stop spending hours on pinterest.

meanwhile, i'll share the pins that i LOVE

last but not least..

come what may and love it:) even if it means waking up in the wee hours of the morning to get ready everyday