i have a home.

i took  a polysci class this semester. and i love it. it's just so interesting and i understand it. and coming from a math class that makes you cry, poly sci is the hug you need. weird right?

a month ago i met with my mentor and i mentioned that how not happy i was with my biology home, and how much i loved my poly sci class. so she told me to go meet with an advisor and figure if it's something i really want to do. i'm meeting with Michelle tomorrow. so true to my slacker roots, i met with a poly sci advisor today. and lemme tell you. i fell in love.

i have a home. i'm not a biology weirdo, i'm a poly sci weirdo. 

i only declared a poly sci associates but still. i am in love. maybe i'll be a biology minor. but she mentioned that for my senior year i can do an internship worth 10 freaking credits in freaking WASHINGTON DC. 

and i can literally get any job i want because a poly sci major is almost like a wild card.

phew. i have a home i love. 

i feel like this is what i needed to get me motivated. i have something to look forward to other than bugs and darwin. 

the next big battle is going to be telling my parents.. My cousin in a poly sci major and when my dad found out, he ripped her a new one. so lets hope he's moved on because i love this already. 

also, for my english final, i can make it into a blog!:) YES. 

then...I GOT A RAISE AT WORK!!!!:) 

also, i promised tay i wouldn't blog but i NEEDED to share.

i have a home:) 

v-day and v-cards

"he's super cute and just GAH! i like him"

i feel like every time you ask a girl about her boy she says the same thing. 

but this time, i really mean it. he IS super cute and just GAH. 

when you work in a restaurant working holidays like valentines day is inevitable. so tay tay and i both worked and we agreed on doing valentines day on saturday. buuut there was NO way i was just going to disregard the most lovey dovey day in the whole year. so i got on pinterest and started searching for some cute do-dad for tay

here's what i came up with...

1. cookies

2.brownies

3. heart shaped cookies with writing 

4. cakes 

5. more cookies

6. more brownies

7. candy grams

pinterest failed me. i didn't wanna kill taylor with my baking skills and my poetry skills aren't up to par. 

so i thought of the next best thing. 

a heart attack. :)

with tons of cute things written on them:) 

so i got my sissy and we spent a solid hour cutting hearts out and writing stuff. but then i had to go to work at 5 so we were in a time crunch. 

before that, i had the most stressful day at school. freshman to the max over here. 30% of my final grade is on one test that i spent all night studying for. i get to my THURSDAY ONLY class ready to kick this test's butt, when i find out that the test was on tuesday. pretty sure my world caved and started flooding as my eyeballs did too. so i ran into my academic counselor's office to see what i should do. but she wasn't there, but another lady was and she told me to go talk to him and tell him what was up and that she would bet her life that he'd let me take the test. so i did, i went and pleaded my case with tear streaked cheeks and thank holy Jesus, he's letting me take it. so minor heart attack right there. about an hour after i got home, taylor shows up with a dozen LONG STEM roses. :) totes adorbs right??:) i was totally caught off guard because i was thinking that we were doin stuff on saturday. but it was a pleasant surprise to a horrific day:) 

whadda gem:)

SO after cutting hears, i was off to work, and we get slammed. until 10. we had a table come in at ten. we freaking CLOSE at 10. i left work at like 10:35, and i got the other host to help me with taylor's car:) winter nights are freezing in utah friends. but oh so worth it. :) 

"my mom is telling me there is something on my car..." 

so i'm thinking SHOWTIME!

then i don't hear from him for 40 WHOLE MINUTES.

so i'm thinking he's bugged with me for attacking his car....again...

but then he wasn't so we're a-okay:) 

oh and another funny thought, in college, i guess anywhere, sex is such a norm. we had a lecture branch off and turn into a sex talk. in high school i feel like i would just stare at my desk with my face turning red. in college, you all just laugh at the dirty jokes professors are cracking. even at UVU in the heart of utah valley. maybe people here aren't so uptight.   

2012, you have been swell

2012 has been one for the books in my opinion.
lets start from the beginning.

JANUARY
as of last year, i am a firm believer that all good years end and start with a new years kiss. last year i kissed this kid right as the ball dropped. it was really cute but kind of super awkward because i was taller than him and my best friends were staring at us right when it all happened.. but i think it gave my year a push in the right direction.
i tested for my 3rd degree black belt.

hardest thing of my life. never will i ever do it again.

FEBRUARY
the whole new years romance had blown up in our faces and we could not stand to be around each other. too bad we had 2 classes with each other every day. for the rest of the year.

MARCH
march was a turning point in what i decided to do with my spare time. i got a pinterest account.
productivity was lost early in the year. but around march,,i went through this "I LOVE ALL THE QUOTES ON PINTEREST" kick and in result, i have pages of awesome quotes in my journal. i think i can pinpoint it to march when i started to finally decide to figure out who i really was as a person. who i wanted to become and how i was going to get there.
i walked in my very first dress show!:)

ugliest dress of my life.

 i have random songs that i fell in love with all through out the year.
march was belle and sebastian.

APRIL
my world was sort of turned upside down.
"Hey Ali. Sorry this took so long, but I kinda did figure it was my fault we broke up. I'd give you a full apology but this damn thing is limiting me. Hope you're taking good care of Joe."
after a year, jake duros, once again, reared his head into my life.
i met up with him one day when i was supposed to be at an AP spanish review and..we kissed. again. i was just so confused about everything. i liked him, but i didn't like him enough to try to make a long distance relationship work. but he was trying so hard to make this different. he kept saying "lets not have another break up." and he offered to spend prom with me, because at the time, i was still dateless and i missed out on my jr prom because we broke up 3 weeks before. i remember almost crying..and agreeing to spend prom with him but not to the whole "lets not break up again" deal.
 april was the middle of my senior year, and i had just transferred into AP spanish. there was this really cute sophomore, but i mean, he was a sophomore. nothing was going to come of it. or so i thought. i LOVED that class. the teacher loved me, i was the only senior girl, so all the boys talked to me, and it was pretty easy. sometime during april, we had a fire drill outside  and it was raining and freezing. i was standing in the field all alone, then out of no where there's a big pair of arms that have me wrapped up.  it was taylor. my first thought was "man. this is a ballsy kid. he smells good, and has nice arms."

MAY
nothing had changed with the whole jake situation. but the taylor deal had gotten a lot more interesting.
i told him i liked him.
we kissed.
then i fell hard for a sophomore who had already treated so much better than jake ever did..
the LAST month of my SENIOR YEAR of freaking HIGH SCHOOL.
track season ended.
matt wrote me:)
and i took my AP spanish test:)
went to morp.
got asked to prom:)
may 18th:)
i almost didn't walk at graduation.
no worries though, i did:)

i wrapped my dates car in 1200 feet of plastic wrap:) he got me 129342 goldfish. taylor came and rescued me from them. 

senior prom!!:)

presh

after walking!!:) we did it!

waiting to walk

JUNE

june was mostly spent with taylor from what my journal says. 

we went to summer fest with ellie and michael. it was freezing but super fun:) 

a whole month spent of endless nothingness.

summer<3

we went mountain biking for the first time:)

celine came from FRANCE to play with us!:) 

he held our shoes so we wouldn't sink in the grass:)

girls camp with these lovely ladies:)

JULY

july was a month of firsts. 

weddings, funerals, realizing how amazing my friends really are.

my ex best friend got into a motorcycle accident with david cancilla. the day after his sister got married. 

i was called to be a leader for girls camp. and i was able to come down to go to the funeral. 

i was terrified. i had no idea what to expect. i asked taylor to come to the funeral with me. i bawled the entire time. the look on some of the people's face is permanently engraved into my memory. it breaks my heart every single time. 

the support and love i got from all my friends was incredible. 

girls camp for the last time with my ward girls was amazing.

AUGUST

LAKE POWELL 

 

a week in the sun, half naked, all day every day. holla at yo gurl.

"i always wanted to be perfect for someone." 

summer was finally winding down and there was a lot in store for our cute little summer fling. half the world thought we wouldn't last summer, the other half was sure we'd break up once school started. but i wasn't quite ready to let him go just yet. football season was in full swing and i feel like i almost died during football. 

SEPTEMBER 

college man. i officially was a college girl. 

:)

OCTOBER

october was full of ups and downs. 

i finally made peace with 3 different people who at once ment a lot to me and it all ended to awkwardly. but now, we're switzerland. all is well. 

i was also photographed for UVU!:)

i then\ learned first hand that the person who was never supposed to hurt you probably will. it'll break your heart and you'll cry for days on end. then your best friend drives down from salt lake at ten at night on a week day and just holds you and lets you bawl on them while everything just sucks. and that's when you learn to be a grown up and try your very hardest to forgive them because they hurt themselves just as badly. 

NOVEMBER 

you know those awkward times when your mind says something but your insides are saying the exact opposite?

welcome to a solid 3 weeks of my november. 

i got a JOB!!!:)

then there was thanksgiving!:) 

DECEMBER

i survived my very first finals week ever. 

it was filled with endless nights skyping with taylor doing math, reading biology, and crying. somehow, i survived. 

best. birthday. ever. 

pretty gnarly chistmas too:)

this year has been one for the books:) it's had some serious ups and some serious downs. the kind that make you wonder if you'll ever crawl back up again. but over all, it's been amazing.

here's to 2013!