flash back

today i went to juice n' java with the ex. 

this is the ex. 

vegas 2010. u.s. open 

when my team merged with his, i remember walking in and thinking "oh hey..he's cute. he's going to be my boyfriend sooner or later." and what do ya know.. he was.

we competed in forms. so basically, we spent hours upon hours working on our forms together in front of mirrors. and eventually, we went to the biggest international open in the world...and got our sorry 16 year old butts handed to us. 

after a sticky breakup, we lost touch. clean break ya know? he went to orem and i was at mountain view. i didn't hear from him in two solid years and i'd see him occasionally at a cross race. but not too long ago he facebooked me and we talked for a little..or maybe until two in the morning. and it was just all about the "good times." something about being 16 was just so fun for us. and it was nice. i was able to get closure that i was certain i didn't need for two years. it was okay. he didn't hate me. we were civil. all is well. 

then today, guess who i get a text from..? 

the ex...

so since he's the ex, i HAD to look good. like "oops i'm cute..sorry i've moved on" cute. 

messy curls, skinny jeans, loose purple high-low cut shirt.

oops..i'm cute...:) 

"hey i'm in orem for today and tomorrow..and i'm down to do whatever."

well okay.. so i was like 

"who is this..?"

because i didn't have his number. and after introductions, we agreed that coffee tonight was the plan. 

normally, coffee get togethers are simple.

1. meet at coffee shop

2. get drinks

3. talk about nothing until drinks are gone

4. depart 

this one was a little different..

one dirty chai later, and we ended up at some park talking about our "good old days." then we ended up walking around the river bottoms for a solid half hour. mind you, it was freezing. 

again, all we have in common two years later, was out relationship...that neither one of us is wanting to bring up.. me because there's nothing left in the past..him..i don't know..and i'm not sure i ever will.

this whole thing made me realize how i'm incredibly happy i have taylor. he puts up with me when i think with my ovaries..and cry every other day..and he cuddles me..and he holds my hand and kisses my forehead.. and gives me his coat when i'm cold. he just takes care of me:) and i think that today, i had a major breakthrough with our relationship. i was able to actually word what i'm thinking. i was able to follow my thought process and let him know. because usually, i'm so caught up in crying that i don't remember. but i did today! and no tears.:)  month five has been anything but easy.. here's to month six:)

all too true.. don't sweat the small stuff..

government and oreos

ladies and gents...

from my almost 4 years of high school, i've learn one thing..

awesome stories really. 

i didn't go to my required-for-graduation-and-keeping-my-full-ride government class for 3 weeks because picnics in the park and coffee sounded so much better...

and the term end this friday.

i have 7 make up papers to write, and a final to take on 3 weeks of U.S.  government that i missed.

oops. 

but no fear!

6 of those 7 papers are done :) 

and it's late..my tummy is grumbling..

so i went and found oreo's.. 

:) 

and now it's 2 in the morning...

i'm rocking out to country music (that i secretly love)

and having a panic attack because of my messy room...

oh yeah.

so once upon a time, i drank coffee...

and loved it...

now..

i have a really bad caffeine addiction..

to the point where my running coach felt bad and let me go home from a workout because i looked like death without my coffee :( 

the word of wisdom is true!!

coffee's soo bad!!!:( but so good at the same time :( 

if anyone knows how to get rid of awful headaches let me know...:) 

i think i'll look homeless tomorrow...

it's only monday

but cute junior and soccer player and kryptonite are all in my classes tomorrow...

ugh, maybe i'll still look homeless...

everyone should get one homeless day a week :) 

paper number 7 isn't even half way done..

somehow the 26th amendment isn't too exciting at 1:43 am..

i want summer:( :( 

ahdjavnuiencdf

and  

my room looks kinda like this...

:( 

jeans

panties in the corner

megan's sweater and skirts...

i think that after paper 7 gets done, i'll clean my room..then maybe go make breakfast...

:) 

or someone should come make me breakfast...

mother theresa

you know those days when being alive is just simply to difficult?

and going to class makes you wanna punch babies?? (heaven forbid we are in a nursery when that happens)

yes, well we decided that it was time for a personal day.

thorchez or sanley style:)

we made our way to Starbucks and got coffee.

we were FINALLY awake. thank goodness for caffeine.

then we got hungry so we went to mcdonalds and got breakfast:)

yay for dollar menu!!:)

then i needed to pee, but we couldn't walk back into mcdonalds cause that would be weird, so we ventured off to the library.

then we decided that we needed to go somewhere where we could truly enjoy our coffee that Starbucks made for us.

this is where we ended up..

the y.

when we got out of the car to enjoy the awesome view, karli stubbed her toe and instead of yelling profanities, she belted out "MOTHER THERESA!!!" at the top of her lungs.. so elle and i joined in the belting. we thought it would be refreshing to the ears of the BYU students.

we are hilarious in our own minds.

then out of nowhere,this hippie-granola man comes up to us and asks us if we were the ones yelling, and cautiously we said yes..

we weren't sure if he was gonna get mad or something but then out of nowhere

he cracked a smile and as we bursted out laughing because we were so embarrassed someone heard us, and this man thought it was great:)

then he left and told us to have a happy life:)

and that my friends, was the start of an awesome day:)

then we decided to venture off to dry canyon, and have deep talks on the hood of my car about the previous day that we spent with the coolest guys ever:) then once it started raining,we still had no intentions of moving. so we didn't. until we got bored and went on a nature hike:)

then we got burritos from tanner's house.. he has awesome green salsa.

then we went to the dollar store and bought matching ring pops because that's what best friends do:)

then we finished off the day at my house reading about kissing tips from cosmo..

memories are totally made when you're doing what you're not supposed to be:)

i.love.senior.year.:)

totally worth the 6 days of hark now:)

MOTHER THERESA!!!!

:)