so much

it's amazing how much there can be in 3 pages of paper. 

my patriarchal blessing is 3 pages long and when i stumble across it from time to time i read it and i bawl. every.single.time. 

when i'm in an insecure place in life, it always reminds me that there is someone that loves me and knows who i am. there are things in there that are INCREDIBLE. there is no doubt in my mind that my blessing is mine. and no one elses. i haven't let anyone ever read any part of it.. i've shared itty bitty pieces with one of my best friends and that's it. i don't cry too often when i read or watch movies, but this gets me every single time and i love it.. someday i might just share it a little bit more.. 

come what may and love it.

i still don't think i'm quite ready to say that it's all true, but i do love it.. 

you are special

when i first declared my major..i was a little iffy about it.

i mean biology. it seems cray cray. something i wouldn't picture me honestly doing.

slowly but surly i am coming to LOVE my major. it's not easy..by any means. but so far, it makes sense. it clicks. it's hard enough to make me work but not hard enough to make me want to poke my eyeballs out. i love it already:) and! it's even better when your best friend is in the class with you. 

biology teaches very important life lessons. 

like we are all very special. 

like really.

today we talked about mitosis and meiosis.

and did you know that at the end of all the cell divisions, if we started with a sperm cell, all those newly divided cells will mature into little spermies? that will eventually try to fertilize an egg.

but in  a girl, when the cell originally divides, it's a gnarly division. one half is huge..then you have this itty bitty other scrawny half..then they both go through meiosis, and you only end up with one cell big enough to mature into an egg cell. that eventually be turned into a baby with the help of the spermies.

we are all so special!! we were the ONE cell big enough to mature into an egg cell...:) well of course not ONE but 3/4th of the possible egg cells died...we are freakin awesome. 

so we not only are the fastest sperm, BUT the egg cell that survived meiosis.

i heart being a bio major.