sister sanchez

i think i was the only girl in utah county that didn't facebook the new age requirement for missions...

i think it's incredible that so many girls are so eager to go and serve, and that so many young men are prepared to submit their papers early and go off to work. it's awesome. there is nothing cooler than going to farewells and seeing individuals give up 2 years of their lives to go serve the Lord. 

but then that leaves me...and...well...myself and i. 

i think i'm one of like two girls who aren't really affected by the new rule. 

and i'm already getting questions like "when are you turning in your papers??!" "when do you turn 19???" "where do you want to go???" it's almost like i don't have a choice not to around here. 

but i'm ali sanchez, and i'm not serving a mission. i want to go to school and find out who i am. i don't feel like i know the gospel enough to go and teach. i'm freaking out at the idea of teaching my sunbeams next sunday.. and i don't necessarily think it makes me any less of a good member of the church if i don't serve. it's just not for me.. i know the Lord has a plan for me. 

numb..

i know heavenly father does everything for a reason.

i know he was a plan for each and every one of us. 

but sometime, 

it leaves you feeling numb. 

this morning, heavenly father welcomed home two of his precious children. 

Janet Velasco and David Cancilla. 

Janet and i used to be best friends and then we both got caught up in our high school drama and called it quits. and if there is anything i regret, was not making more of an effort with our friendship. i guess sometimes it just takes something as drastic as losing someone all together for everyone to get their acts together. 

i guess what i'm getting at is not taking anyone for granted. 

janet made some serious impact on my life and everyone who she was around. 

one time in the 7th grade she said "you don't need to tear others down to make yourself look better.." 

and that has always stuck with me. i was such a brat, and thanks to her, i've mellowed out so much. she taught me how fragile life really is and that we need to love everyone and everything...