welcome to utah valley

today was my first experience with institute.

from what i've heard, it's supposed to be something along the lines of seminary. 

only like a million times better. 

and actually, it was honestly one of the worst experiences ever.

when they say that only those who really want to be there go, they're not kidding. 

i've never ever felt so so..bleh. i don't even know. it was just a horrible feeling walking into that room.

then the conversation started.

some guy was like "I served my mission in Australia and everyone there hates God. They're all materialistic atheists." 

ah, i'm not sure quite what it was but that really made me so angry. like DUH! missions are hard and you have to be willing to accept all sorts of people. the gospel that seems like second nature to us is something totally foreign to those who've never heard it 

it's not that they "hate  God", they're just not used to it all. and you would think that a MISSIONARY of all people would understand that..

it's the stereo-typical utah valley mormon.  

i know this missionary who's serving in like south america and he recently emailed home and was like 

"I don't understand why they're not willing to give up everything they know for God." 

and stuff like that just makes me so angry. 

i just feel like my institute class is full of crazy self-righteous return missionaries that are certain they're above everyone..

(and i do realize that i'm passing judgment...but still...)

it just makes me want to never go back to that class.