it's never too late

last night i had the craziest dream ever. 

first, i dreamt (chacha says it's a real word..) that i moved into an apartment with Jimmer and a few randoms...

what in the world...?

but then it totally changed..

i was telling Janet a story about this one boy who we both liked sophomore year. lets call him john.

john ended up screwing both of us over so we both were not fans..like at all. 

john had started talking to me again and i totally freaked out so i HAD to tell someone..who better then the girl who knew him just as well as i had? 

and when i actually started talking i said "Ah! i wish you were really here so i could tell you all this..! who cares i'm telling you anyways" 

 janet was always super protective of all her friends, and if you ever needed anyone to vent to, you could ALWAYS count on her. always. 

so i'm telling her this story, and she pulls out her phone and starts sending a strongly worded text to john...

and it was sorta like i knew right then, that whatever happened between us was over and we were moving on. we forgave each other it felt like. 

i woke up feeling like i'm crazy..or like she really forgave me for everything that happened.

then! i turned on pandora, and 

make you feel my love started playing.. 

if anything described janet ever, it would be this song.

she's taught me so much and i love her so so so much.

it's already been a month and i can still remember finding out that she was gone...

everything about that was a first for me..i'd never been to a viewing..much less a funeral. it was all so surreal .

but knowing that we're okay, makes letting her go so much easier because i know i'll see her again

:)