not real. not yet. no way.

i just don't know anymore.. 

it wasn't real until today...

her body was there..but what made it so special was far far away. 

i miss you jay.. 

i want you to come back..

"our best friend is SO attractive." 

oh man..we had some crazy conversations.. 

everyone treats me like i'm made of glass. if they say the wrong thing, i'll shatter into a million pieces. 

yes. i'm okay. 

yes, it's so much harder then i ever expected this to be. 

no, i don't know anything anymore.. 

i'm so thankful for all those people who've reached out to me during this. 

britt. you are seriously the older sister i never had.. 

thank you so much for coming with me today and giving me the heads up on what to do.. 

it means so much that you would take time from your day to help me overcome something like this. 

i just don't know what to do anymore..