floating.

i'm a little bit terrified because i know what i want to do and what i should do are two totally different things. 

each with it's own positive outcome. so that only makes things harder. 

i feel so burnt out to keep on going with what i want to do. yet, i feel so incapable of doing what i should do. 

and i'm scared to keep pondering about it because i feel like i already know my answer but i'm not ready to face it. i'm not actually sure i'll ever be ready to face it.